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I drove from Ft. Lauderdale to just north of Naples today and listened to Y100 for about 1:45 of the trip hoping that they'd play Some Girls. But no luck. The DJs did torture me, though, with both Hillary Duff and Lumidee. I wanted JC, damn it. For some undefinable reason, hearing a song on the radio is different from playing it yourself. The entire drive took just over 2 hours. I haven't driven that far in years. It wore me out!
So, I saw my grandfather.
There's just so much there. Years when he couldn't really talk to me or my sister because we remind him of my dad. Years of trying to get to know each other again. He actually talked about my father a lot this weekend. The good and the bad. It turns out that my father's business was really struggling at the time he died. I hate to hear that. I want an honest picture of my dad but part of me also just wants to think of him the way I did as a seven year old- perfect and infallible. It's hard to think about my dad struggling or suffering. My grandfather also spoke very briefly about the day my dad died. It was the first time he's ever done that. But I also got happy stories about my dad as a kid and I can now add my grandfather to the list of people who used to smoke joints with my dad in the backyard.
I'm so glad I made time for the visit.
Now I've got to get ready to meet FL Counterpart for drinks and dinner. Heavy focus on the drinks.
PS- Happiest of birthdays to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
topaz119!
So, I saw my grandfather.
There's just so much there. Years when he couldn't really talk to me or my sister because we remind him of my dad. Years of trying to get to know each other again. He actually talked about my father a lot this weekend. The good and the bad. It turns out that my father's business was really struggling at the time he died. I hate to hear that. I want an honest picture of my dad but part of me also just wants to think of him the way I did as a seven year old- perfect and infallible. It's hard to think about my dad struggling or suffering. My grandfather also spoke very briefly about the day my dad died. It was the first time he's ever done that. But I also got happy stories about my dad as a kid and I can now add my grandfather to the list of people who used to smoke joints with my dad in the backyard.
I'm so glad I made time for the visit.
Now I've got to get ready to meet FL Counterpart for drinks and dinner. Heavy focus on the drinks.
PS- Happiest of birthdays to
topaz119!