um. a bit of unrepentant gushing.

[saturn]

lilysaid wrote McKay/Sheppard! Squeeeee! I saw the link to the story while I was at work and fought the urge to read the story until I finally gave in, started reading, and then closed the browser because, OMG, PORN AT WORK! At which point I e-mailed Lily freaking out about PORN AT WORK and then realized that, once the browser was open, I should have gone all the way and finished the damned fic.

But now I'm home and I've read it and it's wonderful. I love this John and this Rodney and Lily, too, for taking a full on dive into SGA.

Handout by Lily, post Lost Boys

John just watches, his heart thrumming in his throat. Rodney stands alone, hunched over the table, his knuckles pressed to the glossy surface, and he is heartbreakingly silent while they talk about him as though he's not there. John's throat goes tight at the furious bewilderment in McKay's eyes, at the unguarded disappointment and loss he sees there, far worse than the times he's seen McKay fail through his own merits. The light from a few minutes ago is gone. It's the worst thing John has ever seen, and he's seen a lot of terrible things in his life but he doesn't ever want to see Rodney McKay with his confidence ripped out from under him again.

Go read and then tell Lily she's wonderful and should write more SGA.