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I'm back from my trip to NY/Baltimore and head over heels in love with my nephew. Chase is the cutest, littlest thing I've ever seen and my sister is a complete natural with him. It was one big love fest.
On Sunday I took the train down to Baltimore for a work conference which was, counter to expectations, tremendously productive. It was also frustrating as all hell. I have great chemistry with a man I know through work. It's just very easy for us to be friends but there's never been the slightest indication of anything more and, though I'm attracted to him in a surprising sort of way, it's always been irrelevant because he's married.
To make a very long story short, on Monday night he made it clear that he's been attracted to me for a long time and he'd like to pursue that attraction. (He made it clear by kissing me.)
The whole thing sucks. I want to kiss him. And I wanted to spend the night with him. But he's married for goodness sake. I've been there, done that, and I'm never doing it again. I deserve someone who can be with me. Period. Not someone who can be with me for a night. Or in secret. And that's exactly what I told my friend.
We talked a bit more on Monday and then, on Tuesday afternoon, met up to try to regroup. I was sure he was going to express remorse but he didn't. He told me that he can't get me out of his head and he'd like to “wait and see.” Whatever. What that means is that I get to wait while he spends time figuring out what the hell he wants. It's not going happen. I'm not having an affair with a married man and I'm not spending my time waiting for a married man to decide whether or not he wants to be married.
I'm irritated, disappointed, disillusioned and frustrated about the whole situation.
SGA: In happy marriage news, David Hewlett wedding photos
Dr. Who: I LOOOOOOOOOOVED "Turn Left." Oh, Donna Noble. This show makes me so happy. (Before I start reading reviews, was the general reaction to the episode positive? I don't want anyone to harsh my squee.)
Torchwood: Have some great Gareth-David Lloyd links from !
And here are awesome photos of Viggo from CineVegas Film Festival and the set of Appaloosa.
I have three episodes left in s4 of Babylon 5. The last episode, Between the Darkness and Light broke my heart. :(
The fun part of this week's travel is tomorrow is already Thursday! Friday night I'm cooking crab cakes with friends and then, on Saturday, I have plans to see "Wanted" in the afternoon and "Wall-E" in the evening. Sunday I tackle my weeds.
ETA: I ran 5.5K today (\o/) and listened to the BSG podcast for "Revelations." Ron Moore & company were talking about the benefit of not plotting out the entire series ahead of time because it allows them to build on unexpected elements of the show. It was interesting to hear their perspective because, as a fan, I see both sides. On the one hand, I love that they have the freedom to surprise themselves and, by extension, us. On the other hand, there's something about knowing the plot has a course that gives me comfort in such a mythology based show. Look at the X-Files. What a mess. BSG hasn't let me down yet, though.
They also talked about how this idea of writing the series as it progresses applies to a particular plot point. When Kara was told that she is the harbinger of death, RDM didn't know exactly where they'd take that. Now, through the destruction of the Hub, it turns out she was the harbinger of death/mortality for the cylons. It was interesting to hear that confirmed by RDM & Co. since there have been so many different fan theories about what "harbinger of death" meant (including the idea that RDM confirmed).
On Sunday I took the train down to Baltimore for a work conference which was, counter to expectations, tremendously productive. It was also frustrating as all hell. I have great chemistry with a man I know through work. It's just very easy for us to be friends but there's never been the slightest indication of anything more and, though I'm attracted to him in a surprising sort of way, it's always been irrelevant because he's married.
To make a very long story short, on Monday night he made it clear that he's been attracted to me for a long time and he'd like to pursue that attraction. (He made it clear by kissing me.)
The whole thing sucks. I want to kiss him. And I wanted to spend the night with him. But he's married for goodness sake. I've been there, done that, and I'm never doing it again. I deserve someone who can be with me. Period. Not someone who can be with me for a night. Or in secret. And that's exactly what I told my friend.
We talked a bit more on Monday and then, on Tuesday afternoon, met up to try to regroup. I was sure he was going to express remorse but he didn't. He told me that he can't get me out of his head and he'd like to “wait and see.” Whatever. What that means is that I get to wait while he spends time figuring out what the hell he wants. It's not going happen. I'm not having an affair with a married man and I'm not spending my time waiting for a married man to decide whether or not he wants to be married.
I'm irritated, disappointed, disillusioned and frustrated about the whole situation.
ETA: I ran 5.5K today (\o/) and listened to the BSG podcast for "Revelations." Ron Moore & company were talking about the benefit of not plotting out the entire series ahead of time because it allows them to build on unexpected elements of the show. It was interesting to hear their perspective because, as a fan, I see both sides. On the one hand, I love that they have the freedom to surprise themselves and, by extension, us. On the other hand, there's something about knowing the plot has a course that gives me comfort in such a mythology based show. Look at the X-Files. What a mess. BSG hasn't let me down yet, though.
They also talked about how this idea of writing the series as it progresses applies to a particular plot point. When Kara was told that she is the harbinger of death, RDM didn't know exactly where they'd take that. Now, through the destruction of the Hub, it turns out she was the harbinger of death/mortality for the cylons. It was interesting to hear that confirmed by RDM & Co. since there have been so many different fan theories about what "harbinger of death" meant (including the idea that RDM confirmed).
